Open doors

I really had a moment of conviction this morning, actually more than a moment. Let me explain. For weeks I have been doing a LOT of complaining and have more than once been reminded to check my perspective and look at others who have so much less to give and yet still find a way to serve others with the little that they have.

I have let unwholesome talk continue and perhaps have even encouraged it. I have not acted or conducted myself in the manner that I wish to be seen. Instead of stopping gossip and toxicity, I have encouraged, inquired and continued it.

In return, my soul has felt empty. I have not felt God’s presence because I was not seeking Him with a pure heart. I prayed that He would give me words to share. I did my Bible reading and Scripture writing but as an obligation and I was not gleaning or growing from it. I sought the advice of a trusted prayer warrior who basically told me to just stop and be still. She even advised to put down my Bible, watch a favorite show or listen to a favorite song or just enjoy some time in nature. As recently as last night I told a friend, “I sure hope He gives me something inspiring to share soon.” My well felt dry!

This very morning my heart was strongly convicted when I learned the details behind a decision another person had recently made. A decision that had absolutely zero effect on me and yet my initial response was annoyance and full of questions regarding that person’s intent. When the details were provided I thought, “well why wasn’t this explained in the first place?” and then God said, “why does it matter if the circumstances were tragic or peaceful, should we (the Church) not respond in the same manner of love and grace either way?”

Since the beginning of time, mankind has attempted to pick and choose which laws, commands or words of God one should follow and then placed that opinion before others expecting them to follow man’s words rather than God’s. We impose our opinions on others and correct them (and not always lovingly) when they do not submit to our ideas.

Sometimes we need a strong reminder that as the Church we must behave as the Church by opening our homes instead of just posting cute sayings on social media about our doors being open and coffee ready. We must remember that this is not always going to be comfy and convenient to our schedules. I am convinced that some of our greatest blessings will come from the most unpleasant circumstances.

We must quit saying we are Christians and start being Christians. We must open our doors to be ready and inviting WHENEVER someone is in need. Our fancy houses and buildings are worthless when the doors are locked to keep people out or others in.

There is so much hurt in this world and so many broken people who feel they have no place to go or maybe they know where to go but they do not have the scissors to cut through all of the red tape. We must do better. We must be better. Our future generations depend on it.

Go today. Gather His People. Dwell with God and in His Word.

Verses for reflection:

Luke 21, Jeremiah 29:10-13, Proverbs 18:8, Ephesians 4:29, 1 John 3:18, 1 Peter 2: 11-17. 1 John 3:18, 1 Peter 2: 11-17.

Since I am afflicted and needy…

The ever-evolving world of friendships seems to keep in a constant state of mourning. Life changes, time is short and before you know it you haven’t actually seen or talked to that one friend for months. Other days you hear from someone you hadn’t talked to in years and are elated to rekindle old friendships. And yet still there are days when it feels like you have no friends at all, and no one can be bothered to make spending time together a priority.  I am often jealous of the girl’s trip weekend pictures people post on social media or the “we have gotten together every year for one weekend for 40 years” etc.…

Priorities in adult friendships get weird. Especially when you love people all over the world, but they are all over the world and no one just to walk over and chat with or meander through Target with on a rainy day. People are really good at saying “I am here” or “call me” and then there is no follow through. Would probably be easier if they just said, “my life is too busy for you right now, but I am thinking of you”

Middle aged mama over here just desperately wants to be seen and heard. Not just by the obligatory comments left on social media – but really seen and heard – to feel like spending time with me is not an obligation but a “valued need” to get through life. It can’t be one-sided, and I do try my best to find time to commit to other people. I am sure someone out there thinks I fail miserably at this and if they are reading this, they probably are rolling their eyes and saying, “listen to your own words.”

As I pray through my pity party, I stop to think, “I wonder if this is how Jesus feels when I do not spend time with Him?’ Jesus had friends and many left their homes, families and jobs to follow him. Crowds gathered to hear him speak. A woman believed she could be healed by touching the hem of his garments.  And yet, it was his closest friends who failed him the most. One betrayed him, one denied him, only three are mentioned at the foot of the cross, and one of those was his Mother! 2000 years have passed, and people are still abandoning him, denying him, and not making time with him a priority. And yet, he still is there patiently waiting for me to make time with him a priority in my life. Why do I crave the approval of mankind when I already know Jesus is with me and has never failed me, never broken a promise, never told me I wasn’t worth it?

Perhaps it is for this reason that I feel let down by people. I mean, if we were all everything to everybody, what need would we have of Jesus? If my needs could be met by people and things here on earth, why would I look forward to Heaven? Perhaps these feelings today are just another example of the opportunity to find joy in my mourning. I cannot control other people, but I can control my reactions. I can take charge of my feelings and replace the lies with truth, today the truth I am claiming is found in Psalm 40 using the NASB translation.

God Sustains His Servant.

For the choir director. A Psalm of David.

1I waited patiently for the LORD;
            And He inclined to me and heard my cry.

  2He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay,
            And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm.

  3He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God;
            Many will see and fear and will trust in the LORD.

 4How blessed is the man who has made the LORD his trust,
            And has not turned to the proud, nor to those who lapse into falsehood.

  5Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done,
            And Your thoughts toward us;
            There is none to compare with You.
            If I would declare and speak of them,
            They would be too numerous to count.

  6Sacrifice and meal offering You have not desired;
            My ears You have opened;
            Burnt offering and sin offering You have not required

 7Then I said, “Behold, I come;
            In the scroll of the book it is written of me.

 8I delight to do Your will, O my God;
            Your Law is within my heart.”

 9I have proclaimed glad tidings of righteousness in the great congregation;
            Behold, I will not restrain my lips,
            O LORD, You know.

 10I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart;
            I have spoken of Your faithfulness and Your salvation;
            I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth from the great congregation.

 11You, O LORD, will not withhold Your compassion from me;
            Your lovingkindness and Your truth will continually preserve me.

 12For evils beyond number have surrounded me;
            My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to see;
            They are more numerous than the hairs of my head,
            And my heart has failed me.

 13Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me;
            Make haste, O LORD, to help me.

 14Let those be ashamed and humiliated together
            Who seek my life to destroy it;
            Let those be turned back and dishonored
            Who delight in my hurt.

 15Let those be appalled because of their shame
            Who say to me, “Aha, aha!”

16Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You;
            Let those who love Your salvation say continually,
           “The LORD be magnified!”

 17Since I am afflicted and needy,
            Let the Lord be mindful of me.
            You are my help and my deliverer;
            Do not delay, O my God.

May you find peace and comfort in His Words today!

Calm Down and Be Quiet

Do you ever feel like the world is just loud and it is hard to hear from God? Or maybe you are just so busy with all the day to day that you do not have time for downtime. It seems like everyday we are busier and busier and somedays we just forget to “Be still and know”  Psalm 46:10 – The NASB translation actually says “Cease striving and know that I am God…” Isnt that what we spend most of our life doing? Striving for success or love or happiness or freedom or to be seen or to be heard or….

A lifelong friend of mine once said that I was one of the few people she listened to and sometimes she just needs to be told to “sit down and shut up” – isn’t that what God tells us to do time and time again in His Word? To trust in Him to handle even the smallest of details. God says this same thing through Isaiah to Ahaz in chapter 7. Ahaz and his people “trembled likes trees of a forest shaking in the wind” at the news of nearby fighting and invasions of other kings. Though these kings were plotting evil and Ahaz knew it, God says “sit down and shut up, I’ve got this!” It’s hard to just sit down and be quiet when society tells us we should always be striving for more!

Being quiet doesn’t necessarily mean not speaking. The Theological  Wordbook of the Old Testament says that shaqat means “be quiet, tranquil, at peace.” and further describes it in the following way:

The basic idea of the root is ‘tranquility.’ It implies the absence of strife, war or trouble o the one hand, and worry or anxiety on the other. It may also imply the absence of a pressing obligation, or again, of some disturbing element that mars a relationship between individuals.

How can you realistically practice this today? Is there a thought or worry in your mind that you need to let go of? Do you need to carve out space in your planner to just “Be” – to be with God or to be with His People? Are you the type of person that can easily just calm down and trust God or is that a last resort for you? Whatever you are facing today- face it with God and imagine a lifelong friend telling you to just “sit down and shut up” and to let God handle it!

Be well! Dwell with God, in His Word and with His People!




Again with the Obedience and Blessings lessons

I was so excited to see answers in God’s Word moments after I journaled a prayer in my Awaken by Priscilla Shirer journal. I wanted to do a live video to share about it. But…it’s HOT and I didn’t think anyone needed to see me sweating and squinting in the sunshine. For those of you who have followed along or heard my ramblings this year, again I am being reminded about being obedient and the blessings that follow. I had selected the word “purpose” to focus on this year but it seems God had other plans.

To begin my few moments of quiet before the children or grandchildren found me, I was reading Matthew Chapter 4 and I underlined verses 19-20 in my bible. This is where Jesus tells Simon Peter and Andrew “Follow me and I will make you fishers of men.” The Bible tells us immediately they dropped their nets and followed him. I know  I have touched on this before but today I also noted how they did not ask questions, they did not wonder how they were going to eat or have necessities. They did not worry about how they were going to provide for their families. They simply listened and followed him.

I next moved to the devotional which was titled “Hearing is Believing” and spoke about David and Goliath. The journal prompt question was “What types of things are your fiercest battles saying to you right now?” I journaled about the implications of being unemployed and going to grad school and incurring further debt. I wrote about feeling tired and that nobody or nothing gets the best of me or all of me- everyone gets a little but I can’t fully surrender. I ended my journaling with this prayer:

Lord,  Help me to commit fully to You and to the roles you have placed me in – to the people you place before me. Help me to show your love and commitment o to others. Pick me up when I fall – remove the sense of failing from my life. Help me to trust in you! Amen

After journaling I like to look up the verses that are included in the devotional. The second verse today is Isaiah 50:4-5 which is titled “The Obedient Servant” and it says: “The Lord has given me the tongue of those who are instructed to know how to sustain the weary with a word. He awakens me each morning: he awakens my ear to listen like those being instructed. The LORD God has opened my ear, and I was not rebellious; I did not turn back.”

This sums up so many of the lessons I have already been learning this year. Listen to hear, be obedient, share with others, be blessed!

While there are days of doubts, days when I don’t give my best to anyone, I still move on- small steps at a time. Listening for the Lord, sharing his word and being blessed when what is written here touches the lives of one of you. I guess that’s why your feedback is so important to me. It encourages my soul and my obedience with blessings that I am able to see here and now because I know God’s plans include blessings for others that I will never know about on this side of Heaven.

Until next time 🙂

Dwell in Him, In His Word, With His People!



Is your spirit different?

When my son was younger we had some difficult times with teachers. However, one teacher gave us hope! She seemed to see something beyond a young boy who wouldn’t sit still, listen or confirm to the standard box of “normal” first graders. She was sweet and kind and encouraging and she shared with us that the last thing she wanted to do as a teacher was to stifle that spirit and that uniqueness that made Nixon who he was. She was one of those rare teachers that adjusted her methods to reach her students rather than expecting those young students to adjust to her.
As I read in Numbers 14:24 about Caleb and how he is described as having a different spirit, I remembered this teacher and my own boy and thought about the few people in this world who have the courage to be different. Far too often we want to fit in the mold, do it like everyone else and not stand out, because…what if we are wrong?
When I looked up the word used to describe Caleb’s spirit the definition given was “disposition of various kinds, often unaccountable and uncontrollable impulse.” I am quite sure I used those same words to describe my son and I did not use them in a favorable fashion. Yet here I am, 4 years later and God is still using those moments to teach me lessons. Just maybe it is okay to have a different spirt – if spirit is under obedience of Our Lord.

Caleb could have been just like the other spies and other Israelites, but he was different and thus we find in Joshua 14:8 that Caleb followed God completely! While the others lost heart, Caleb was obedient and not just a little bit but completely! And Caleb was patient to see his reward. In fact, 45 years patient (that’s just a little bit less than my whole life time). The Bible tells us that Caleb stayed strong and did not neglect his daily tasks and ultimately, he was granted his reward and rest! Isn’t that we all want in the long run? Reward and rest!

We all have a mission field! That mission field does not have to be big and it does not have to be scouting foreign lands. Your mission field is wherever God puts you – in your home, with your family, your workplace, the Walmart checkout line and even on social media!
As I reflect on this lesson, I asked myself and now I ask you – Am I modeling complete obedience? Am I taking God with me or am I trying to go at it alone?

Where is your mission field today?
How can you celebrate having a different spirit that shows God you want to be like my son Nixon and like Caleb and not easily stuffed into a pre-described box?
Who else around you is showing a different spirit that needs to be celebrated?
God created us all individually – we are one of a kind and a piece of his workmanship- let’s rejoice in our differences today!



I have missed you so I recorded a quick 5 minute video this morning talking about comparisons and differences.

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I encourage you to read Numbers 14 and Joshua 14 as I will be using these for an upcoming lesson. Let me know if you have questions after you read them!

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Be well and dwell with God, in His Word and with His people!

And remember: blessings follow obedience!

It’s not my job…

As I shared on the last post, I didn’t want to share what God told me to share. I felt unqualified, judged and that no one would listen to me anyway. God kept bringing Moses to my mind. In Exodus 3 and 4 we learn about God calling Moses into service and how Moses responded. Before we get too far into that I have to share what my CSB translation shares about the “burning bush” – because it kinda cracks me up.

Meanwhile, Moses was shepherding the flock of his father-in-law Jethro, the priest of Midian. He led the flock to the far side of the wilderness and came to Horeb, the mountain of God. 2 Then the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a flame of fire within a bush. As Moses looked, he saw that the bush was on fire but was not consumed. 3 So Moses thought, “I must go over and look at this remarkable sight. Why isn’t the bush burning up? ”

Exodus 3:1-3

Really? “an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a flame of fire within a bush” and he thought “I must go over and look at this remarkable sight.” How many of you think that is quite a tame response to such a magnificent sight? If it was me I would have been “holy buckets! where’s my phone I gotta get a picture of this!” and then I would have been hollering out to everyone I know!

alright sorry for that quick side track – but it is in the next verses that God calls out to Moses and tells him what he wants him to do. God has chosen Moses to deliver the chosen people from the oppression and slavery they are suffering in Egypt.

Beginning in Exodus 3:11 Moses questions God the first time “who am I?” and God reassured him- “I will be with you…when you bring the people out of Egypt” notice God says WHEN not If...but Moses is not convinced and asks again “what do I say when they ask who sent me” – notice – God has already told Moses “I am the one who sent you” God replies “I AM!…this is how I am to be remembered in every generation” – every generation (that means you and me too!!) and in verse 18 God says “They will listen to what you say.” Notice- God doesn’t say you will make them listen to you. God just says “they will listen to you.”

But still Moses is unconvinced and again he questions God in 4:1 “What if they wont believe me and will not obey me…” God provides more miracles to show Moses he means business (because like most humans Moses needs to see proof – can you relate?)

In verse 10 Moses starts to beg “Please Lord, I have never been eloquent….my mouth and tongue are sluggish” and still again God reassured him (how many times does God have to reassure me or tell me what to do before I listen?)

God says “who placed a mouth on humans?” (I wonder if he regrets that decision)

and again he says “I will help you speak and I will teach you what to say”

But still… Moses begs…”Please, Lord, send someone else.”

Finally God has had enough and he agrees to allow Aaron (Moses’ brother) to help him.

God is relentless. If he has a job for us to do he is not going to back down no matter how many times we say no or beg him to send someone else. But oh the sweet blessings of obedience!!! I wondered why God felt distant when I wouldn’t listen to what he was telling me to do. He was still there but he was not going to let it go…not going to let me go. He wasn’t distant from me but my stubbornness caused me to feel distant from him. Since obeying him and sharing last week I have felt something change inside of me. I am excited to awake each day and see what He has to share with me and I pray for guidance and wisdom to know when it is time to share with you. It is not my job to make you listen to me (and that is a hard one for me to learn. I want you to listen and respond and share and keep the spark going…but I can’t make that happen). It is my job to listen to God, to do what He tells me to do and to enjoy the blessings that follow obedience.

  1. Have you ever felt like Moses and begged God to send someone else?
  2. Have you ever asked God to show you His will for you?
  3. Do you make excuses for your disobedience?
  4. How can you open your heart to hear from Him today?

Until next time. Dwell with God, dwell with His people and dwell in His Word!!!

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Twas the week before Christmas

and all through the house…fill in the blank. How is your house? Is it calm and peaceful? Are you preparing for company? Preparing to travel? Planning a quiet time at home? or preparing to avoid the sadness that comes when miles or jobs keep you separated from loved ones?

The word on my mind the past week is sanctuary. I don’t want to miss out on the important lessons from the bible about this word but I also think before we can claim sanctuary in our souls or our homes we have to take time to pause. And who besides me finds it hard to pause…especially the week before Christmas?

Take a few moments to pause and breathe and reflect and thank God for the many blessings you have. Sit in quiet with just the twinkle of the lights on the tree or the flicker of the fireplace or maybe just the dark. Ask God to give you peace during this week. Peace like you have never felt before. No hustle and bustle, no stress of family dynamics, just peace and thankfulness for another day with breath in your lungs. 20171214_075831

God didn’t send his son to make us rush about like crazy people in the “spirit” of celebrating Christ’s birth. He sent His son so that we can be free and live in peace now and forevermore (John 3:16). So that we can find peace and reconciliation with God. So that we can draw near to him to dwell in that place of Sanctuary. Let’s let our homes be a place of peace this week. Let’s let our hearts be a place of peace. He is the Prince of Peace. Let’s let him rule in our lives each day this week (and ever-after)!20171203_194202

I pray that you enjoy this week. Enjoy the food, enjoy your people, enjoy the lights, enjoy the peace. And if your home is missing any of these things come on over! We have plenty to share!!

You may find me rambling a bit between now and the new year but invite your friends and join me back here on Jan 8 as we learn more about sanctuary and dwelling!

Merry Christmas! May there be Peace on Earth and Goodwill to Men! (Luke 2:14)

Psalm 15 – Peace and Quiet

I had originally planned something different for this video but God just took me in this direction instead. I have for MONTHS been craving some quiet time in a cabin. Although the circumstances aren’t exactly what I envisioned- I am at this very moment (Monday, Dec 4, 2017 at 1:19pm cst) sitting in a cabin by myself – listening to the wind blow and spending time with God. The remainder of my day will be hustling and bustling, chaotic and crazy but I am soaking up these moments now so that I can soak up those blessings later.

I would love to hear how you are soaking up the quiet moments in this season of life? Please share below in comments and also feel free to share this (or any) post to someone who might be encouraged! Have a wonderful day!!


Book Giveaway announcement

So excited to announce the final 2 of the book giveaway!
4. 7WFocus by Mendy Shriver
I met Mendy a couple of years ago as she was giving away tickets to a local womens ministry event. Once we met we learned we had a couple of friends in common and a passion for sharing the word of God. Like me , she is the mother of multiple teens (she has 5,pray for her) and we are both in grad school. I am currently doing her 7WFocus study and learning a lot about physical and spiritual health!! Find her at
5. Jonah by Katie Orr
Katie was another fabulous speaker that I heard at LifeWay Women leadership forum in Nashville. I loved her new ways of studying the Bible. Also she chose her study on Jonah for this giveaway! Which is totally the one I would have picked too!! It was a year ago this weekend that I gave the Sunday message at a small church in western Nebraska and spoke about the lessons we can learn from the book of Jonah!! For excellent tips and resources visit
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The first 3 books have been selected.
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Soul struggles and the New Year

The past few months have been a bit of a struggle for me. I am not sure if it is an identity crisis, mid-life crisis, spiritual warfare or all of the above. But thanks to some good life long friends and text therapy, I finally think I have had a breakthrough. I have a hard time sharing my struggles publicly because I am used to being the “strong” one. I am not sure how that persona ever got started but it seems to be the role I have “played” best lately.

I told a friend a few weeks ago that I felt like none of the people in my current day-to-day life knew me for the first 20 years of my life and vice versa (family not included). What I haven’t shared very often (that I remember, anyway) is that as a teenager I became convinced that I was going to die in a car accident before I turned 30 years old. As each new year brought me closer and closer to that age, I began to wander what life was going to be like without me. As a teenager I imagined all the bullies would finally feel bad for the all the tears I had cried over their words or perhaps one of the boys I had crushed on would finally stand at my casket and admit his undying love for me and how he would never love another – bit dramatic, ya think? Now you know where my kids get it from.

As I moved into my 20s I had children to raise and love and try not to destroy and even one to be held for two weeks straight until it was her time to be called back to Heaven. God worked amazing details during that time in November of 1993 but that’s better saved for a different time. I am pretty sure I chose to ignore many of the dangerous situations I allowed myself and my girls to be put in. Perhaps I had that underlying death wish guiding my way or perhaps God was directing my misguided steps to lead me to a new life.

30 seems to be an important number for me. As the idea of dying started to fade, I started to make deals with God, such as “if I am not married by the time I am 30, I am never going to be married again.” – haha! good joke! I know without a doubt that God sent Andy to me just a few months shy of my 30th birthday. And I know without a doubt that God orchestrated things in such a crazy way that would find us married 2 days after I turned 30. I don’t know how God found any man in this world that could put up and be so in love with the crazy that is bottled up inside this 5’2″ brown-eyed girl – but he did and I am ever so thankful! Our 18 years together have not been perfect but I remain convinced that God sent Andy to save me from my self-destruction and I know he is perfect for me!

My thoughts have been obsessively controlled for the past few months on that person and that life I had before I turned 30. Give me all the 80s songs and big hair and neon colors please! I have been reliving conversations and moments in time and I am not even sure which ones are real or fantasy anymore. I prayed and prayed that God would win this battle for me because I knew it was a spiritual battle and satan was working to keep my mind off the present and the plans God has for me. I felt like I had no safe place to vocalize what I was thinking because of the judgement that would follow or that my messed up mind would be taken the wrong way and people would be hurt by the endless rambling that kept me awake at night. I would share bits and pieces here and there with trusted friends and my husband but never felt free enough to let it all out. I just kept saying, “I think I am going crazy!”

Through some text therapy with a dear friend (one whom I have known over 30 years) I finally felt a break through. She didn’t say anything I didn’t already know. She just said things in a way that only she could that had me crying and laughing and not feeling guilty or shamed for the things we remembered from all those years ago. I slept so peacefully for so many hours and woke up with a smile on my face and laughter still bubbling from my soul.

In some ways, maybe I did die before or as I turned 30. I am not the girl I once was but I want to be allowed to remember her with laughter and not shame, or sadness or tears. I want to put aside all the pretenses of being a grown up and responsible adult every now and then. Because as my friend pointed out last night those years before 30 had a LOT of hard times but I was surrounded by an amazing close-knit group of friends and it is that feeling of acceptance that I think I miss the most.

Adult friendship is hard and it’s different and it is far more lonely than I think anyone wants to admit. We are busy in our roles of wives, mothers, grandmothers, employees, bill payers, house cleaners, and so on and so forth. and so very few us take the time to make our friends a priority. Somehow society has told us that if we spend too much time on ourselves or our friends than we are selfish and this diminishes our chances at wife or mother of the year. And many times, I think that we are just so tired of trying to be everything for everyone that it is all we can do to drop into bed at night and then lay there thinking of what the best school lunch menu days were or remembering that one time “when the lights went out in Jackson”. And then we shame ourselves because that was long ago and far away and my thoughts should be on the blessing God has bestowed on me today and how I can love better and serve better and mother better and just be better…and we wake up exhausted and do it all over again forgetting why we walked into the kitchen or where our phone is while it is in our hands.

y’all, I love Jesus and I love God’s Word if you know me at all – you know this to be true. But somewhere inside of me is a barefoot, big haired girl who misses driving down dirt roads with the sun beating down, windows down, music full blast and forgetting about the cares of day-to-day life. I still struggle to find a middle ground, but I think I can and I think God will approve. I suppose a part of me did die when I turned 30 and this life after 30 (closer to 50 now) is my best life but I wouldn’t have gotten here without those dreams and memories and people who came before. So I wont let Satan lie to me anymore. I will laugh when things are funny whether they occurred in 1987 or 2019. I will cry when the memories reach a tender spot in my soul. I will reach out more to the people who have always played an important role in my life and I will make it a priority to spend time with them beyond the “let’s get together for lunch someday” – and then someday never comes.

Will you join me in 2019, with windows down, music up and barefoot feet upon the dash? Life is a wild ride but let’s vow to find the joy in everyday!


fb_img_1534130288983Growing up and well into my adult hood…like until today, I never thought much about the other followers of Jesus during his ministry on earth and soon following his death and resurrection. There is much emphasis on the 12 and those closest to them. However, reading in Luke 10 today a few things stood out to me. 1) He sent 72 others 2) He sent them in pairs 3) He sent them to every town and place where he himself was to go 4) He asked them to pray because the harvest was “abundant” and the workers were few.

These are important things for me to remember today. Many of us feel called to ministry and we do not always know what that looks like. There are so many big names in ministry today and for me this causes a lot of doubt and insecurity. I don’t know how many times I have said “no one wants to hear what I say” or “I’ve got nothing new to share” – but the thing is everyone’s mission field is going to be different.

Jesus did not tell the 72 to go to the places where the 12 had already gone. Jesus did not send the 72 on their own to cover more ground- he sent them together. He sent them to the places where he was about to go and He encouraged them to pray for more workers.

So you see, your mission field is perhaps just your home or your workplace. You don’t have to have a big following or a formal ministry. You were not meant to do it alone. Grab a like minded friend- encourage each other. Support each other. Pray for each other. And know if you are called to “go” to a certain place (even if its in the next room) this must mean that Jesus is preparing to be there too!!!

No matter how many workers there are – the harvest for followers of God is growing! There will never be too many workers! Your mission is not going to be the same as my mission. Don’t believe the lies that the world doesn’t need another woman talking about Jesus! Take the next step, grab your partner, and just Go.

As you continue to read in Chapter 10 Jesus gives more instructions and basically He says – I have already given you all you need. Go and offer peace. Not everyone will welcome you and in that case; move on! Keep those in your prayers but don’t dwell there. Move on!

Maybe your name will never be known outside of your home mission field. Maybe you will be like the unnamed 72. Maybe you will wonder if you even matter. Trust me. You matter! Those 72 were able to reach people that the 12 were not. You are able to meet and minister to people in ways that the Big name preachers and teachers can not. The world needs all the workers for Christ.

Don’t give up. Jesus will never give up on you.


Be well! Dwell with Him, in His Word and with His people!